Brian's Blogg
This will probably be my final post here. I've realized today that this blogg is futile and more or less a vain attempt at revenge. I started this so Tiffany could read it and see what I'm doing and maybe be jealous for soem crazy reason. I confess I"m a bit hot headed and don't put up with much crap, and that is seen my some to be crazy, or have issues. However, in many circles there are other's in this soap operas that have bigger issues. I'm through putting my life on the web adn all that garbage. I don't even give a shit about what Tiffany's doing, because quite frankly her existence is insignificant to me. I know in my hear that I will go far and live out my dreams of ranching. So to Tiffany and everyone else...ya'll can kiss my white ass. Bye.
tonight I read somethign quite disturbing. Yeah I read Tiffany's blogg for some strange reason. What I read was total horse shit. All I can say is that the things I did with BJ were becasue I was young and stupid. the things I wanted to do to Tiffany is becase she's a lying, cheating, Livingston Parish nickle-dime whore who deserves more than just an ass whipping. Tiffany, if you happen across this post, you're a lying piece of shit, who happens to be dating the same. I guess shit attracts other shit. I know the both of you are pieces of shit, most everyone around rodeo think's you're a piece of shit, and even people that aren't but know one or both of ya'll think you're a dumb shit. It's funny how one can go from being best friends to bitter enemies. You think you had a laugh with 1 former girlfriend...I've had many laughs with a lot of people who have all said the same thing, you're a friggin dumbass, trashy, and a whore. I'd rather be called a bit nutty than have someone tell the truth and describe me as you. While you spand your time supporting Bull's worthless (and toothless) ass, I'll be enjoying my life and self-made wealth and freedom. However, none of this matters to me except the loss of trust I had in my former friend. That's more of a loss than anything. In hindsight, losing you wasn't even worth a solitary tear becase I didn't lose anything other than a cancerous tumor, a leach on my life.
Good Lord but lots of things have been happening since I've last posted. Let's see here, Bobby and Deanna got hitched, I sold off my livestock, I sold Big Red, I bought a new-to-me F150 4x4 Lariat, I moved back to town with my parents, I've been going to Marcie's house a lot, mom and dad are still assholes and live in a box outside of normal reality, and that's about it. Life is good right now. I've got a really cool job that's stable. I've got a good woman to stand beside me and not mooch off of me like a leach. I've got good friends that would do anything I ask and I the same for them.
Wow! It's been forever and a day since I've posted on here. Lots of things have happened and changed in a month!
Let's see, I've sold off all my livestock, I sold my Dodge, bought a newer F150 4x4 Lariat, moved back to my parent's house in Baton Rouge, got my best friend married to my other best friend, found out that the tittie bar in Pine Grove is the nastiest shit-hole of a strip club I've ever been in, realized that love is not an elusive crock of shit, and found a good job. I'm working for Capital Steel now as a detailer, which is another name for a project manager. It's a pretty good job, the pay is good, and the company is the most stable I've ever been involved with. Bobby and Deanna are now "old married fucks" and they are currently honeymooning in the Smoky Mountains. I now pilot a 2000 F150 Lariat 4x4 with leather bench seats, a Sony sound system, and soon pipes and tinted windows. Nice truck and a lot more civilized compared to my Goat. Marcie and I are doing super. We went to the wedding this weekend and had a great time. I've been holding my feelings in but I've come to admit that I'm falling in love with this woman. I've never been treated so well in all my life. She cooks for me when I come out to see her during the week, she washes my clothes if I ask her to, and pays for supper sometimes. All of this is a drastic change from the leech I was once dating. What a woman. Bobby and I are working on a 5-year plan right now. If things go the way we have them budgeted, we will be ranching part-time within 5 years and full-time in 10. Until then I'm going to rope, bulldog, ride my 4-wheeler, ride the Jet-Ski, and drink beer.
Things have been quite here lately. Been trying to find a good job and I have a feeling one is about to come about. Dad and I went and played 9 holes of golf Friday morning, and we had a blast. We sucked ass, but we had fun and laughed at each other. Marcy and me have been busy doing stuff. We stayed home Friday night and watched a movie and went to bed early, like old farts. Saturday we went to Hammond to get things ready for her friend's wedding Saturday night. The wedding was cool even if it was a dry event, but we still managed to sneak some Boone's in and we got a little tipsy. Sunday we went to church in Amite then went to Baton Rouge to go eat lunch with mom and dad at TJ Ribs. Then we fried fish at Bobby's to complete the weekend.
Bobby called this morning and his uncle had to shoot his horse last night. The horse had cholic and it apparently happened a fw days ago and his intestine was impacted and dead. They shot him and the vet said that's what it was. Then a fellow that we rope with in Liberty got hospitalized. He was coming hom Saturday night and a vice fell off a truck, crashed thru his windshield hitting him in the shoulder, then went thru the back windshield. The docs think they will have to amputate his arm. All in all it's been a day for bad news.
Bobby's wedding is just around the corner so I have to start writing a damned speech and go to get fitted for a tux.
Been yet another week of highs and lows.
Marcy and I have been hanging out a lot. She spent the night Tuesday and last night we went to supper with her family. She's coming over again tonight to hang out. It's so odd being with her. I don't feel pressured to be something. I can be myself and that's perfectly good enough for her. She treats me nice and actually cares about what's happeneing in my life. I don't feel scared that she's going to hurt me. I've never felt this calm and peaceful before. With Tiffany I was constantly paranoid that she was going to screw someone behind my back (course we know that those concerns were justified and came true). Marcy isn't like that. She's beyone that childish bullshit, course being 29 you probably ought to be. I feel priveledged to hold her in my arms cause I know that i've never held that much woman before. She's dependable, hard working, truthful, and absolutely gorgeous. Blonde hair, hazel eyes, 110lbs, about a B or C cup, perfect butt, and legs that go all the way up. See, she's going thru a divorce from a piece of shit who took her for granted, much the same way I feel about past girls I've been with. I can see in her eyes that there's some hurt and scars there, but I also see a lot of love to be given. I see something in her that reminds me so much of myself. I deon't feel nervous or self conscious around her either. I used to be worried about being fat and bald and jobless and none of that makes a damned bit of difference to her (course I'm not fat anymore so that helps). She used to run barrells and has a horse and wants to start riding again. She's into and supports my roping and living here. Plus, she thinks about as much of bullriders as I do, which is to say NOT MUCH. LOL! It's just a really great thing and I hope like hell it works out.
Speaking of work, today was the last day I have to drive to New Orleans. Thos cock suckers let me go, but it's not that bad a deal becase I hated going down there anyway. I've got a real good shot at getting on with Dow, and I've got a few other potentials too. Looks like the Lord is finally answering my prayers. When I first moved I said I had everything I needed except 2 things...a good woman and a good job. Well I think I've found the good woman part and have a feeling that the good job is just around the corner.
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What an intense and interesting weekend I've had.
Friday night Bobby managed to escape from Deanna cause she was having some wedding party crap. So, he came up to the house with a friend of his nad we cooked some food and started drinking. We ended up going to a roping in Arcola and hung out with all the folks there and ended up drinking about 3 cases of beer between all of us. Did the usual stuff Saturday with the cows and put out some Ammonia Nitrate on one of my pastures to get my grass growing. Took it easy Saturday night. Sunday was hectic. I tagged and wormed all of my yearlings and gave a shot to one of them. Then Bobby and Brandon came up and helped me catch some of the newborns so that I could castrate the bulls and tage them. We only ended up getting about 5 of them. Had company last night. This girl that I've been talking to came over and hung out. I was totally blown away by her. I guess I was wrong...there are a few good women out there that have their heads on right. She just turned 29, lives in Independence, works at Sears i nHammond and is going thru a divorce. Her ex was a POS and took advantage of her and took her for granted. Basically her story and mine are similar in nature. Anyway it looks promising and I hope it works out. Pretty cool chick.
